Big Pockets

I

2011-12-05T05:45:00.000-08:00

I am a single individual.
I have issues.
I am not confused.
I know what I want.
But at the same time, people around me dont know what they want.
I want what I want.
I need to be strong.
I am strong.

But I am sick and tired of the 4 walls that used to be my strength and moral support.
Now they are becoming weak.
I am afraid I might crumble.

Need a new heart

2011-09-19T09:11:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of trying to fit myself into your life.

And tired of helping you to get over you heartbreak.

Cause I know that i'll never catch a place in your summit. I don't even know if you love me anymore. So I don't want to force you and pressure you and put you through this rubbish, cause afterall i'm not the one comes to your mind first thing..

Now I need a change of heart.

Decisions

2011-09-15T12:46:00.000-07:00

I'm still in the midst of making a decision. To do or not to. I'm impatient. Heartless and immature day by day.
Oh wth just acept the facts and walk on like a hero.
Goodnight starlight starbright. I miss you but it'll never be the same.

I mean what I say

2011-09-14T12:40:00.000-07:00

When I said that I'll always be your friend I always will be.
Now you're sad but I didn't want it tihs way though all these have happened. Its okay just stay strong. You're too pure and loving to have to be hurt this way.
I want to say this to you so much but I can't 'Please don't give up hope and work towards being positve in life. Save money and work. Please stop drinking everyday and smoking too much, if i were there you'd listen. I'm not there to nag at you but I'm telling you here right now'

so if you happen to chance upon this you know I still care. Please take care. AND remember everyone loves you. ALOT! wish to see a better change in you.

will not forget your happy face.
with much love,
preepops

Unhappy ending

2011-09-06T21:19:00.000-07:00

I want to hug you and tell you everything's gonna be alright. But I can't.
You don't know how much you mean to me. You really don't. All these unhappiness I hate to see dawning upon you.
This isn't the right way to make things right. But there isn't another way that could be less bad. I pray to god every minute. For him to protect you and make you strong.

Of everything you've done for me you've never thought the worst for me. But..
i keep doing this, you don't see the good side but only the bad. Its okay if the whole world turns against but you are gonna pull through this.

Much love always!

p.s I left without a word cause I cldnt bare to hear you before leaving

Back and forth back and forth

2011-06-07T21:25:00.000-07:00

I think I'm losing control.

Kick in my head

2011-05-17T21:10:00.001-07:00

I'm not happy about the conversation I had last night.
I'm really not happy.

Do you think before you talk. to me?
Cause you know I'm one sensitive bitch and all you do is spill your words.
c'mon I know my priorities its just that i'm having some experiences.

From today its a new day and brand new deal. Watch the new Priya Pops.

Never let you in

2011-05-13T09:48:00.000-07:00

maybe I will never let another pass by this brick wall of mine

Skinny Obsession

2011-05-04T20:31:00.000-07:00

I hate insomia not because not because I can't get enough sleep but its cause it puts me into a state of reminscing memories which I know I can't get back

Nothing is going right

2011-04-18T04:18:00.000-07:00

Can I be someone new? Or be born again? Cause I had my life pretty planned out. But I didn't follow the book. Maybe in my next birth I will. Well at least I'm planning to do that. It reduces the major and overall complications that are setting in right now. Lesson learnt: Never break a heart

I can I can't

2011-03-30T09:51:00.000-07:00

so keep crying like a bitch till then Everyone says I can do it. They ask me to try. But I'm just so stupid. Thus I can't do anything.

Tying Knots

2011-02-02T03:27:00.000-08:00

Its about making the ends meet.
Its about tying them into knots and preventing it form hanging loose again.
Its about becoming tighter and tighter every single time.

Trust.
don't go.
Stayy.
Please.
Its not that easy.
Believe me.

Firworks

2010-12-09T08:20:00.000-08:00

Baby you're a FIREWORK

I wish you would see what's deep inside.
And not only on the surface level.
Understand where i'm coming from.
I won't ask you for anything more.

you're original can' be replaced
if you only knew what the future holds
after a hurricane comes a rainbow

2010-12-06T07:24:00.000-08:00

These days I feel very much empty.
I feel that I'm don't have a reason to live.
Sometimes there is nothing I look forward to.
Other days I just struggle to fill my day with something useful other than school.

I fight for time every single day.
There is barely anything left for me.
There's so much expectations and duties to fulfill.
Trying to make another happy and see a smile on your face,
YES it makes me happy at the end of the day.
But after that smile, you carry on and I'm stuck in the same place.
the same phase. The same habits. Feeling the same. Not knowing how to take the next step.
Thinking, I know, I'm heading in the right direction.
But the fact is I'm heading in no direction.
Just stationary not moving,
Feels good.
I don't have to commit.
I don't have anybody or anyone to question me or answer to.
But at the end of the day there is no one left on the other end of the line to call. mine.

so goodnight and sweet dreams.
cause my dreams will take me further than reality.

I know what to do to but I just can't do it.

FAIL

2010-11-15T07:42:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to hate you as much as I can.
I say I hate you.
I try to hate you.
I think I do.
But eventually i don't know if I really do.

I take revenge on myself and ruin everything by myself.
So I have nobody to blame right.
Yes right.

Different

2010-11-09T01:44:00.000-08:00

http://amirabegum.tumblr.com/page/1

i like. amira i cope kay. haha
k bye blog later.

SHAG

2010-11-08T09:01:00.000-08:00

cause I'm a shaggy dog

you take me for granted.

Bang!

2010-10-20T09:20:00.002-07:00

Run red lights

Sleep at 6am

Nightmares

Insomia

Wish you were never me?

CLOSURE

2010-10-20T09:20:00.001-07:00

I wish I wish I wish

2010-10-09T21:20:00.000-07:00

Day and Night

You think my days are easy and my nights are sweetdreams

I don't how strong to be. cause I'm falling with you.

2010-09-24T08:19:00.000-07:00

First of first,

CSA you're a bloody blood sucker

Nowadays I feel this. No I only started feeling this like a day or two back.
I feel that I have no friends. There are definitely alot of friends that will invite me to their birthday parties or call me to club with them or ask me along to go for shopping to get another friend's birthday present.
But no body will actually be the friend that knows me top to toe, or join a bestfriend competition with me and actually get a 99% result or..
I don't have a best friend or a friend that I call everyday
or a friend that gossips with me on the phone for long hours
or a friend that i see at least 50% of the week (except schoolmates which I'm not very close to).

I know time is a major factor for all of us even me. But the thought, a text a phonecall will do wonders, It wouldn't make me think so much and ponder on unneccasary thoughts and think if my girlfriends really think i'm that important or it wouldn't really make a difference if we hadn't met. If I were to move to another country my absence wouldn't affect you much cause I was 'just a nice friend' afterall.

This is not a stupid or emo post but after a whole crowd that came to my birthday and I could be saying this means it means something right.

And I know its not the end.
My Beautiful Beginning<3

2010-09-06T00:58:00.000-07:00

wah FUCK.
I just typed a godamn post and poof its gone.
Fuck it

2010-09-04T23:01:00.000-07:00

PRIYA's 21st WISHLIST!

Coach Handbag / Wallet
DKNY bag
Fujifilm Instax Camera/ Polaroid Film
CHLOE PARFUME
GUESS watch
GUESS Super skinny Jeans
DSLR
Leather Jacket
Multi Purpose hair thingy (curler straigthener waves)
CLOG Ankle Boots (TopShop)
TOMS Shoes
FRED PERRY Shoes
BIRKS (Black 3 Straps)
Universal Studio rides
A Trip to Hongkong
Shopping Vouchers

...More more more to come

2010-08-14T22:31:00.000-07:00

I love your smile.
I love your anger.
I love the way you laugh.
when you are happy
I love the way you hold my hand.
When you text me. when you call me.
I feel happy.
I love it when you let your hair grow.
I like it when you wear stuff I bought you.
I like it when people say we're compatible.
They love the way we love.

Will you be here forever?

2010-06-20T10:11:00.000-07:00

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY

WISH YOU WERE HERE THOUGH
YOU KNOW I ALWAYS LOVE YOU THE SAME!
hugs and kisses all for you! mwaaah!

2010-05-27T04:42:00.000-07:00

I'll miss you Daddy.

<3 priya

2010-04-29T08:58:00.000-07:00

I'm not the one you used to know before.
I can walk pass like I don't even know you.
My world is not the same as yours.
You are an alien. everyone of you.

Try catch me if you can

2010-03-16T12:38:00.000-07:00

I just watched a movie.
It made me cry. Movies seldom move me.
But I'm just afraid that might happen to me. I don't feel the happiness of a lifetime.
It made me realise that I've to be prepared for the unexpected.

Dear Larve,

If you get to see this. I miss you terribly. And i know you're bored to death there. Hurrry get back I wanna have dinner with you. Feeling horribly lonely and bored. I listen to my favourite morning and bedtime songs everyday without fail. I wanna go shopping I got my pay I wanna watch movies too. And pleas dont forge my taj mahal I'm waiting anxiously for it. Glass bangles would be nice too. You know my taste right?! heh

xoxo,
sweetlove

'I wanna leave on the next jet plane to spend the night with you'

2009-07-11T03:03:00.000-07:00

"when you look at me my mind goes on a trip"

Thanks for making me look forward to every single day

and making it an exciting one.

xoxo,

supergirl

2009-03-18T04:54:00.000-07:00

Tears just keep rolling
Without me trying
My eyes are red and they burn so badly
My head throbs and I feel as though my brain weighs a ton
My hand shivers as I hold the phone
My legs feel like jelly
I'm so weak
so weak

I can't hold back my emotions
You say my love was a lie
Heartless
Feelingless
Expressionless
I make you cry more than smiles
I pick fights
and I never show love

Your bubble of happiness I burst
Its only all these that I cause for you
I want to do everything I can for you
And I promise that it was you and only you when it was us

but fear is creeping up my back an choking my neck very slowly
its hard to show or tell how I really feel
but I guess I rather cry now or lose you later

goodbyesaysthebitch

2009-03-04T08:53:00.000-08:00

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I'm addicted to this song & its on repeat baby!

2009-03-03T05:19:00.003-08:00

Nitha and I
had a great laugh, gossiped,
had a great insight into each others lives
and took many hilarious pictures.

yes i know i'll upload the pictures soon. BYE peeps
WITH LOVE PREEEE!

2009-02-28T07:35:00.000-08:00

you must be thinking why I've actually started off my post with an unglam picture of myself
welll. . . all I have to say is that my pictures are like this most of the time
you can take a look at the pictures and rate
hahahaha and I'm so HAPPY I found my lost friends again
missed much. if only nic and gracie came along too

BESTERESTEST FRIEND
I HEART YOU A MILLION<3<3<3

Triozzz love pizza lazz!

okay start of the uglam picss so funny laaaa

hot hot hot Wei Yun (above) &
hot hot hot Leanne (below)

good bye lovessszzz!
<3

2009-02-22T02:19:00.000-08:00

Too bad
You loved a women so heartless

2009-02-15T23:15:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

personal favourite

tiger towersss

wooooo so high!!!

and she was too afraid to let me go

feeling like a bomb after pasta?

It wasn't just another day with you
I saw you smiling to the fullest

awesome candid shot by sweetlove

youmakemesmilesomuch

cable car rides were like SO fun cause i was making her pose silly-ly
and SHE DID!!!

hahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahah!!!

and unglam pictures are so funny. Larve I SO SUPER LOVE your hair
when its messy
oh oh oh! lets go on a sky ride again? I'm sure you would love it

hahahah! you were too afraid of sky rides which were hell rides

lunch.skyride.cablecar.tigertowers.ice cream.seaside.homesweethome.

Valentinesweetvalentine

I don't wanna be your worse fear

these are the overdue pictures

2009-02-14T02:41:00.000-08:00

HAPPY V.DAY!

2009-02-04T08:39:00.000-08:00

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I'm addicted to this song & its on repeat baby!

2009-02-02T05:59:00.000-08:00

I need you to tell me
what I'm doing is right
I need you to tell me
that this is not gonna end
I need you to tell me
that we will be happy
I need you to tell me
that you'll accept whatever decision i make

if my happiness really matters to you
like how yours matters to me,
we'll get along just fine
and this fights will not go on

2009-01-23T07:44:00.000-08:00

If you just realize
we're perfect for each other

2009-01-18T03:05:00.002-08:00

I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

2009-01-09T09:37:00.003-08:00

This is a portrait of SWEETLOVE
You look hot even when you're unglam la Larveee.
you praise yourself too much know. not a lil bit humble at all
So thanks for following me shopping the whole of yesterday
despite the leg pains and the back aches
hahahahha! I love to shop la you have to bear with it right?
I'm telling you now you have to or it'll be hard to be my company
I guess.

Work has been quite smooth but it could get better
but working hours are fantastic cause
I get to hang out for the rest of the day
shop, hang out or go home and sleep
and I have to say that my life has been kinda interesting this week
THANKS TO YOU!

I see the change in you
and I love you for who you are
i'll never get bored of your hugs and kisses
so take me away with you right now

xoxo
supergirl

2009-01-05T05:38:00.000-08:00

Today
was first day at work.

I saw a very pretty girl in the bus. She was chinese.
A bus driver threatened to run me down. He should have just drove over me. But life wouldn't be very good for him after that, thus he decided not to ruin his future. I became somewhat lucky.

I'm tired of being sorry
over and over again

2008-12-23T23:22:00.000-08:00

These are the only pictures I have of Nattee's Birthday and they're not from my camera ):
Its really upsetting that I have such a poor memory and I cannot recall where my camera is.

Its Christmas Eve and I have no plans
no plans for tomorrow too Oh what will I do
Its raining heavily
and all that I could do is sit at home like a bum edit pictures which I'm obviously not very good at
watch tv that screens movies that are not my kind
waiting for my sister to get back from work
I wish someone invites me for a party tonight
food friends drinks laughter chit chat
i miss those very much
I've yet to plan the gathering we're supposedly having at my place this year
and NO I'm not excited for new year
other than my special BD that falls on 090909
That's cool. only for next year
I WANT

-chiristmas presents from SANTA like when I was a kid
-New year present too
-to meet my bestfriends before the year ends
- to work and earn big bucks to travel in the future
-to become slim and model
-TO BE A MODEL
this was her reply " oh no not another one"
one day you'll see me on those magazines after i lose like 10 pounds or so
watch me work towards my dream
you'll never know what I can become

I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
and make love to you
xoxo

supergirl

2008-12-21T23:13:00.000-08:00

LARVENAPRIYAMOGAN! I OWE YOU TWILIGHT AND CHICKEN RICE.
DON'T WORRY I WON'T CHEAT YOUR FEELINGS.WE'll GO SOON ALRIGHT.
XOXO

SWEETLOVE

2008-12-19T02:44:00.000-08:00

I can't find my camera. Nattee's Birthday pictures are not uploaded yet and I've to blog about it. DAMN!!! Where did I keep my camera mann ):

You hold me tight
and tell me I'm you're my happiness

When I see you
I get a sugar rush

You tell me you need me
Just as how I need you

With you by my side I'll always smile
xoxo supergirl

2008-12-17T10:18:00.000-08:00

everytime I tell myself not to cry
I cry
so much
cause you make me realise
how much of a bitch
I can be.

2008-12-11T09:04:00.000-08:00

TAGGED
a) Answer the questions below, do a google image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation.
b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

1) The age you’ll be on your next birthday: Nineteen

2) A place you’d like to travel to: Paris
3) Your favourite place:Beach
4) Your favourite food/drink:Coke and Chicken rice

5) Your favourite pet: rabbits

6)Your favourite colour combination: pink and green

7) Your favourite piece of clothing: colored skinnies

8) Your all time favourite song: Here without you

9) Your favourite TV show: Hip Hop countdown
11) The town in which you live: Sengkang

12) Your screenname/nickname: Preeya
13) Your first job: Tuition teacher

14) Your dream job: Criminal lawyer
15) A bad habit you have: staring at people
16) Your worst fear: Death

17) The one thing you’ll like to do before you die: Sky dive
18) The first thing you’ll buy if you get $1,000,000: Bungalow

Tag: amira, fifa, gracie, nic, larvena, lea

2008-12-11T08:25:00.000-08:00

I'm just glad, nothing went wrong today

2008-12-09T04:36:00.000-08:00

nothing would ever make you change your mind
like how you did

it could only happen once

and not again
the perfect one is always hard to keep
and it hurts to lose
Life is always full of surprises
just like a box of chocolates
don't be afraid
I'll love you for who you are
XOXO,
SUPERGIRL

2008-12-07T00:00:00.001-08:00

I never knew I could be this selfish or heartless
Today I realize how much you've given me but
I gave you nothing other than causing you hurt and tears

TOAMIRADARLING!!!
Don't be sad alright?! You've always got fifasmudge and me by your side. We've got your back. And me to laugh with and to make you laugh. Fifa to lie and make you believe every dumb thing she says (try not to fall for her anymore as she makes it seem like the truth) plus you know you don't look very nice when you frown or go into deep thoughts right?
Umbrella girls sing,
ella ella ella
eh eh eh
hahahahahahhaha.....
ANd you know your dad loves you! so cheer up babeh!
miss much with many hugs and kisses
from umbrella girl to umbrella girl!
heart heart AmiraDarling!

2008-12-06T23:20:00.002-08:00

SISTAAALOVEEE!!! I've 3 words to say,
IHEARTYOOO!!!

If only I could make you mine
I'll always make you smile

supergirl

2008-12-05T23:09:00.000-08:00

TOTHEPEOPLEIMISS.

shankarisillybilly.naomichantingwansabrinatan.charisdarling.kerenbimbo.natashalashasha.
junjun.prissyjoe.easwareee.cherylannlonglegs.

isadarling.angelasexy.khiudarl.

fifasmudge.amiradarling.nazibaby.graciesexayeeee.nicthebabe.weiyunmygossippartner.
leaflatboobs.joshuaaaronsecretscandal.jonathancrazypartner.gabrielsexyah.cuthbertbird.
alvinchewfunnybunny.

sweetlove.

jacchandraprettylove.

jananithaohsohot.

caroline.jingwen.pengyan.vic.rugbybabes.

andmylovedones.you should know who you are

I remember waking up with you

The days doing nothing

You meant more to me then than I think you ever knew

2008-12-05T00:19:00.000-08:00

pictures of you.pictures of me

remind me of how we used to be

2008-12-04T23:00:00.000-08:00

Wish we could switch up the roles

And I could be that

Tell you I love you

But when you call I never get back

nobody loves me as much as you do

2008-11-28T09:47:00.000-08:00

although i look horrible in this picture Its for you that I uploaded it kay!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to my
SEXIESTEST SEXAYE
congratulation on reaching 18 last. haha but you still look 1 2 to me though.
But its good to look young alright so don't be sad its just a compliment
NO matter what you'll still be my hottest SEXAYE ever.
Love you many many much much from the bottom of my heart and I bet you know that by now and no doubt that I'll see you soon
till then missing you
SEXAYE LOVEEEE!!!
I
heart
my
rugby
love
...

I gave up hope waiting for you
oh well

xoxo supergirl

2008-11-27T00:40:00.000-08:00

SEXAYE ladies burn the dancefloor tonight

table 21, we rock eh (winks*)

I love you just the way you are!

umbrella girls I love ya'll muchxoxoxoxoxoxo

OMG PICTURES GALOREEEE!!!! I LOVE MY FRIENDSSS!!!
you'll made my prom night a whole lot worthy
p.s NAZIA, you were stunning tonight
and i think i agree with fifa about the the male hormones part. I think you have then excessively. hahahahah but you know I still heart you riiight babeh!

I realise I'm effing dark
gaaaahhhhhh

I don't know how to say
I love you
when I really do

xoxo
supergirl

2008-11-26T02:20:00.000-08:00

Just finished watching P.S I LOVE YOU

Its so sweet, but then again its a movie, so What the hell!
oh oh oh I had much fun with the girls last night with PROM.friends.dancing.pictures.music
CONGRATULATIONS TO
fifah darl(my hot babe)
gracie baby(my sexaye always)
JONATHAN(crazy partner)
for being nominate as prom king and queen
woohoo! you'll were stunning up there on stage la peeps. No worries kay you'll were a million times better than the winners. winks*
you people are winners in my heart. LOVE YA'LL MUCHOS!
I'll upload the pictures as soon possible. Kinda lazy right now. HEE!

xoxo
supergirl

2008-11-25T01:56:00.000-08:00

SWEETLOVEEEE!!!
I Hope you read this
and
this is for you
Priya screams out loud

"I'll MISS YOU"

I won't be seeing or talking to you for 5 days that is. enjoy your tip to hong kong and disneyland but don't overstay falling in love with the goodlife uh. come back. Anyway hope you have loads and loads of fun(:
will miss you
see you when you're back!

xoxo
supergirl

2008-11-20T07:35:00.000-08:00

I can see the look of love in your eyes

she's your everything

your dreams your fantasy

the ones I dearly miss

and obviously the samys.(sorry I'm too lazy to find a picture of all of us)

mann I really wanna hang out and gossip like what we always did during recess

SORRY to SAB: I couldn't come for your Birthday

but you know I didn't forget your SEXY 18th riiight. LOVE MUCH

xoxo, supergirl

2008-11-20T01:43:00.000-08:00

I hate this part
just this part
only

2008-11-19T05:34:00.000-08:00

OMG they took away the HUGE LOVE that was standing outside FISH & CO (glasshouse)
and I thought it was a really cool
awww so sad! Anyway I can't wait for this fri and of course SAT!!
Party Party Party
We'll rock the house kay SISTALOVE although not everyone may turn up
but we'll burn the dancefloor and have a HELL LOTAFUN!!
Oh! And I'm really excited.
cause I've been deprived of birthdays and parties and fun and...

have never been in love
currently not in love
and will never be in love

I need someone to tell me
what exactly is LOVE
it seems greek to me

XOXO
supergirl

2008-11-17T20:27:00.000-08:00

I told you
You love her
And she loves you
But in the end
I still lose
Cause I'm still standing

Here for you

sexaye sistalovesss! Just look at you.

2008-11-08T05:28:00.000-08:00

Your words I thought that spoke the truth
now then I understand that

Your Love Was a Lie

2008-11-07T05:37:00.000-08:00

can't forget her
so
forget me

2008-10-25T07:50:00.000-07:00

STOP BEING A BITCH!
over again

I can't wait for the EXAMS to be over

2008-10-18T01:51:00.000-07:00

YOU MAKE ME
INDECISIVE

2008-09-09T12:00:00.000-07:00

There are some days that I just refuse to blog even though i feel the strong urge to do so. But today is a day of too much importance (which is only for me) that I have to drop by and scream and shout out loud that "ITS MY BIRTHDAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!"
Birthdays are always exciting especially when it happens to be your own.And I'm feel ecstatic. to all those who texted and called and remembered, got excited and joined in the fun of me turning a year older I thank you'll from the bottom of my heart! Without you people this day wouldn't have made much of an impact in my life. Even if I do not say it that often "you know I love each and every one of you'll"
1200: you're too special to me

more pictures later,

till then

XOXO

2008-09-05T02:36:00.000-07:00

since my BURFDAY's only a few days away (its only 4 days away actually) I've come up with a wishlist that nobody would be able to fulfill ( pls take note that the bold ones are more wanted so if you're intendind to buy me anything. get me one of those) but it's a birthday norm, and I did it with much excitement. So here's my wishlist for you!
enjoy it!

in case you can't see

*that addidas jacket

*vagary watch

-hoodie/pullover

-crumpler

-ferragamo scent

-a cap

-rollerblades

-addidas polka dot tote bag

and to you! i don't need anything caue i'm justacrush

2008-09-04T01:04:00.000-07:00

I miss all these crazy friends of mine, Especially the one and only that I always get high and low with who just can't stop running around with all the high energy. I MEEZ YOO SEXAYE!!!

ex girlfriends,
they don't really care once they have found a new one
and they blame the others if the guy finds another one before herself

ex boyfriends,
they are mostly the victims.
heartbreaks are what they always experience
and they cannot just bare to see the girl whom they considered and still considers a part of their life belonging to someone else. Especially when it seems to them that the past doesn't matter, at all

it doesn't matter after all. I know I'm not perfect and I cannot replace what you lost but I want to be always there for you. Even when you don't give me your fullest. XOXO

Iheartyou

and I can't help but feel this way

AND I guess things are better this way. As long as you are happy, i'm happy for you too!

so school has been pretty hectic and holidays are just so gloomy. Plus I haven't been doind anything mcuh. Just 2 months more and I cannot wait. Although I'm not exactly prepared I just can't wait for all this shit to be over. The pressure I feel is so inconsistent. Friends make school andall this so bear-able. And lastly I don't know if i can survive this but I'm trying my very best.

IDON'TWANNAGOTOAUSTRALIA!! )):

2008-08-24T01:03:00.000-07:00

I have too much to update. But I don't think its possible to do so now. But I've one thing to say, nothing's more than just exciting that prelims are gonna be over by next week. HURRAH!! at least I get a break, for a while. With all the birthdays and celebrations coming up, boy oh boy, my toes are tingling.

And I can't wait for the presents that I'll receive. Not to mention that turning 19 is gonna make me feel really old. Time really flys. But obviously it'll be more worthwhile and not that saddening I receive and celebrate it with drinks food or

maybe... a special someone surprising would do some good. eh you better bring me something for my B.D! bring me out la I'll be more than happy. And sistalove's chalet seems excitinggggg. I wanna help her plan cause I HEART partayes.

xoxo

love language

oxox

and i miss you quite a bit, if you didn't realise

2008-07-30T02:33:00.000-07:00

Waiting for your call, I'm sick,

Call I'm angry call I'm desperate for your voice

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh I am feeling so ambitious,

You and me, flesh to flesh

Cause every breath that you will take

When you are sitting next to me

Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to,

To make you mine

Stay with me tonight

lets just give it a shot and see how it goes

2008-07-25T01:59:00.000-07:00

now let the pictures do the talking

he forgot that he was the BIRTHDAY BOY

and that he was supposed to cut the cake

paying some respect to all those who remembered his birthdayand gave him presents

Happy Birthday, JONATHAN<3

He's SUPER SEXY MIGHTY 18 yo!

B.T.W these pictures are waaaay overdue. I was too lazy to uplaod them and blog.

2008-07-21T07:04:00.000-07:00

In Life,
there should be exceptions
some which you take and some which you let go

Today is a day that I don't regret
making this exception

accepting the unusual

XOXO
XOXO
XOXO

2008-07-06T07:18:00.000-07:00

SUPERGIRL says:

what is thisssS?

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

ME LA

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

like i just took it

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

so alien

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

HAHAHA

SUPERGIRL says:

WOOOOHHAHAHAHHAHA

SUPERGIRL says:

tell me about it

SUPERGIRL says:

you look like a cross between human and a bird and an alien

SUPERGIRL says:

and god know what other creatures

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

SUPERGIRL says:

hahahahahha

SUPERGIRL says:

see la, i have weird friends

SUPERGIRL says:

what to do

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

OIE

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

you wanted to see me nor

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

i send you photo

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

even better

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

hard copy

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

can keep

SUPERGIRL says:

hahahahaha! yes yes

SUPERGIRL says:

i'll sure keep a copy as a memory how my friend looks like

SUPERGIRL says:

so that in the future if you transform I'll still rmbr you old looks

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

HAHAHAHHA

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

show yr grandkids perhaps

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

this is what my good friend looks like

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

But mama! tts no human!

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

yes my dear

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

tts my friend

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

my imaginary friend

SUPERGIRL says:

LOL!!

SUPERGIRL says:

NO! we'll still be friend right?

SUPERGIRL says:

then I'll tell my grand children

SUPERGIRL says:

this is grandma ISA

SUPERGIRL says:

and they'll go "NO grandma! I think you must have travelled to mars or outer space to meet these weird friends of yours"

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

HAHAHAHAHHA

SUPERGIRL says:

and I'll get "rolling eyes" from them

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

so funny

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

i just imagined angela in a mohawk

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

and boots

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

as an ahma

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

teach line dancing

A transcultural tragicomedy says:

HAHHAHHAAHAHA

SUPERGIRL says:

wahahahahahha!!

SUPERGIRL says:

OMGOSH

Right now, I'm supposed to be crafting my SGC. Or at least thinking of what to put into it. But NOOOO!!! As usual my, procastination my most distinct trait decided to take over and so I pushed that aside and decided to blog hop, upload photos, download music, entertain people on MSN, watch television and even blog about not attempting to writ an impressive SGC. Don't ask me if I know what I'm doing. Looking at my lecture books just make me freak out. Although there is only 4 months or so left, the final battler and its all over. I think I've no more energy to even fight and survive through this losing battle.

I know that you don't think that I am trying

Love is a losing game

p.s today is special

2008-06-30T02:10:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again

2008-06-26T09:05:00.000-07:00

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

and baby i have to tell you

you're one in a million

Where did I go wrong

all along, I thought it was perfect,

well, almost perfect

But I've began to feel

this is not worth it after all

our conversations seem so bleak

shorter and unmeaningless

day by day

that it forces me to lose hope

who am I to blame?

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core

And hold onto your words

Cause talk is cheap

2008-06-18T05:32:00.001-07:00

HURRY!

Grab your life back. soon.

The holidays are almost ending.

come back

hi mitran, i know you're reading this.

2008-06-06T07:40:00.000-07:00

Boredom is just eating into me. Its at times like this when you actually explore many things. my mind starts to run wild and starts to think of whatever has been happening. I can help it but just go beyond the details of what I really know about you and at this point of time I may seem like a total BITCH but thats what's good for you and me. Lets keep it this way so that it'll be easier for you to move on. You don't want to end up getting hurt in the end. DANG!!! I hate this feeling inside of me that constantly keeps reminding me that I'm not being my self but there's another voice that's just screaming in my head and telling me to wake up from this fantasy/dream that wish to keep living in.

I know this could work if I made it work and I know I would but what about you. Don't you think its unfair. Yes you realise and always tell me that but its that you do something about it and get on with life instead of being stuck in some phase of life that doesn't help you in anyway. AND STOP RECOLLECTING YOUR PAST if you know it hurts, then just learn to move away and forget about it. NOT cling on to it cause its only gonna upset you further. so yea!!

here are some over due pics from the musical(there's only a few cause i misplaced my thumbdrive that has most of it) to MS THIANG our oh-so-funky- lit teacher's BD to

and hanging out with none other than my kinky girls. Oh god i miss them so much!

Lately, I've been shuuting myself out from everyone and everything. My friends that I gossip with, the family that I roll with everyday, the sister that I fight talk and do everything with. Its just me and I blame myself for being such. If only things would change.

NOTE:

JONATHAN, I know you were falling for my trap the other day but I just gave up too early. DON'T DENY! hahahha! Btw, it was sweet of you to pretend as though you believed me although you didn't. so coffe and donuts soon? (;

Silly Billy, We're always stuck in similar situations. Our favourite line "TSK, MEN" Late night conversations with you can never get boring. We can just go on and on till my batt always dies first. You keep me sane<3
JOSHUA DEAREST, I meeezzzz you sooo much. "try to catch me if you can"
ANGELA! when is our sleepover mann?
ISA! chill out date soon.
CHERYLANN!! we need to update each other on everything yo!! COFFEE, here we come.
and the kinky girls + samy gang we need our monthly meet up gossip and camwhoring session. SEE what I mean by I'm inside my own bubble and far away from the outside world?! I want my social life back.

there're still many pictures to upload and I'm plain lazy to put them up now so maybe in the next post!

till then see ya'll sexayes,
XOXO

the significance of the date

2008-05-25T01:00:00.000-07:00

I'm not demanding

forcing you to tell.

do the things you don't.

say what you don't usually say

quit smoking.

don't drink

delete no.s

All I'm asking for is for you to be mine

and I know its difficult

For once I agree, the puzzle doesn't fit

2008-05-24T06:38:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday!

2008-05-12T08:07:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU
I WANT YOU BACK

2008-05-11T09:36:00.000-07:00

IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA CALL. I'M NOT GOING TOO EITHER!
FULLSTOP.

2008-05-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY mommy. I love you

Just tell me to sit down and read a few pages of the lecture notes and I would speak a thousand words but only read(read only but not understood) one page/10 words? 20 words which is so unproductive. My life is like studying a black hole, or at least thats what I feel! These studying of chemicals and whatever gas they give doesn't seem to add any extra value into my life. But its what evry kid/teenager has to pass and go through to eventuall nurture as the adult to enter the working world which is not gonna be very interesting either. I wanna stay. YOUNG. FOREVER!!! Is that pssible? MAYBE I should create and make a potion saying "Young as always" or "forever young" or "stuck in he present" okay that's stupid. The reason why I'm here is cause I was distracted from studying. AGAINN!!! so I shall head back to studying.

And this is a random thought for Jonathan. " Hey you! You're either tooooo polite or never polite. PICK ONE! Anyway, I've got no problems in always being there,What are friends for right?"

2008-05-10T08:58:00.000-07:00

OMGOZZZZZ!!!!

Today was okay, till I ran into the male's toilet when I SO DESPARATELY needed to go to the ladies. HOLLY! I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL AND WHAT YOU EXPERIENCE.

Let me elaborate a little more on what happened. Fast forward the whole day to the part where I rushed to the ladies on the first floor at SHAW HOUSE! then I heard this lady yelling at me. I had to pay before entering. (WTH! I thought that was so long gone) Anyway, I didn't have money cause I left it at macs where the rest were sitting. SO... I ran all the way to the 2nd floor which was a simpler solution. In the mad rush. I happily ran into the males' toilet and the best part was I didn't realise till I ran past a man who was giving me a very sheepish look( and I was thinking to myself if I was looking like a frantic and that my face really showed "I really need to use the toilet") and a DAD who was shouting at his. Then only it snapped me that 'OH, I'M IN THE WRONG TOILET!' SHIT!!! RUNNNNNNNNNN.
Oh mann. how do I ever save myself from such an embarrasment. And the best part was the guy started smirking when I apologised yelped and ran out of the males' to run into the ladies and hide away fom the scene A.S.A.P I felt very sorry for myself. Anyway,I timed myself befor going out, so that I won't bump in to the guy that apparently saw the whole process of me running in and shaming myself. BUT NOOO...
he waited outside with his Girlfriend to show hrer the girl who ran in wrongly and he was smiling to himself with such JOY! ARGH! That was so mean, but I ran away after seeing him, to save myself. Oh good lord! what was I thinking?!
Moving on from the oh-so-embarresing/interesting??? moments of my life, I realise that its been more than a month since I blogged. Reason being 1) too lazy and 2) I had a too busy life to blog. If not for this incident I wouldn't have posted any entry. Oh and tomorrow's Mother's DAY! Went to town to buy something for mum. Instead, I bought somebody else's present. WOW, what great planning Priya! So we'll see how it goes tomorrow. Anyway gonna read a mag and eat my cookies. GOOD NIGHTZZZZZ!

2008-03-29T09:14:00.000-07:00

HOTCHOCOLATE AND YOU

is what I need.

2008-03-20T10:01:00.000-07:00

interestingconversationsdessertsandiceceamhotgossipshighheelsmoviesandchipsnailpolishlaughterblondestreakssunsetssingsongsholdhandssleepinglateandwakingupearlyrunningandrunningstoninghiphopyosocialgatheringsnightlifetravelchillycoolweathersnuggling upinbedhotchocolate

and now i need to sleep

Love, ME.

2008-03-16T02:20:00.000-07:00

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN

2008-03-15T23:45:00.000-07:00

and together, there's nothing we won't do.

Oh guess what. Finally I got out of the house to seek a life. Despite being at home for a whole week watching the heavy drops falling on the wet grounds flooding the whole town. Something made me feel as though GOD was crying for me. HAHA! yea I know its a funny thought. Oh wells went for GAB's party and had a whole lot of fun despite the part that I was totally overdressed. Anyway ate like A WHOLE LOT I think I might have put on the weight of a chicken. LOL! and to ass on to it, I ate much more last night.

An interesting fact I learned recently is about how chocolates can cause constipation. But that doesn't hinder me from my serious craving for chocolates. I had this serious addiction and just couldn't do without MALTESERS! do't ask me why, so iI walked down to the shop where they usually have maltesers and to my dissappointment there was't any cause apparently the last one was bought by me the previous day. the other solution was NTUC. to no avail no maltesers, sadly. Guess something was just telling me not to have them.

pls don't worry about me I'm fine.

ok gtg catch a movie with the "I don't care what you do to me but i'll find all ways to tickle you" sis!

2008-03-14T07:34:00.000-07:00

sparetyresparetyrespartyresparetyresparetyresparetyresparetyresparetyresparetyresparetyresparetyre

2008-03-04T06:40:00.000-08:00

Just in a while you make me smile.

Another Saturday night I was looking forward to after a whole week of mugging. Partying dancing eating made me just forget all the contorted thoughts of maths formulaes and factors of production blaah blaaahh.... Its every saturday night that I look forward to as it really makes me enjoy outside school life which I'm really deprived of these days. Walking down the rivers of boat quay and clarke quay, enjoying the night life couldn't have been better.

Whenever I'm bored or tired of doing what I'm doing I start to sit down and think and thats when I actually consider some things that I've never considered or thought of doing before. Firstly, my skin is looking really bad so sleeping earlier and longer hours should be my priority these days and Secondly I need to put on some weight bu have to figure out a way to do so cause pumping my body with food doesn't seem to help much though. And coming down along the lines of friendship and love. Its been stagnent, not improving much this year. But I have to thank everyone that's been there for me all this while.

SHANK!! A huge thanks for helping me crack your brains for me and following me, going through all the hassle of finding something. "what will I do without you?" ha.And don't think I easily forgot you. Your calls your stories your lame jokes somehow make my day. Although I try so hard to make you understand you choose not to believe me.

Right now I need sleep and too tired to think, till then. GOOD NIGHT YA"LL or should I say morning!

Baby, you're the best part of my dream.

2008-03-03T00:44:00.000-08:00

A bottle of champagne will do me just fine

If I am ugly. Yeah I'm ugly.

And If 'm pretty. Thanks! I'm pretty.

But I just can't be perfect.

Nobody is

And I know you can't be too.

So just hold my hand, hold it tight.Just you by my side I'll always feel right.

I'm making a promise that I'll never let you go.

with trust

we've got a LONG way to go<3

2008-02-14T06:52:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
and i refuse to blog about anything that happened today

2008-02-09T10:49:00.000-08:00

"GONG XI FA CAI".

Hey everybody. HAPPY CNY! P.s. my spelling's alright!MY CHINESE NEW YEAR HOLS WERE COMING ALONG JUST FINE TILL JUST A WHILE AGO!
I know I'm being a bitch right now, but iI really don't care about such issues. Try to handle them yourself.

2008-02-08T22:28:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHHA! Just look at how silly shan-ka-reee is in all her diifferent attempts of looking silly. Oh mann ,I really want to see you do all the funny things and laugh uncontrollably as usual.

Catching up with you felt really really good. Talking to your bestfreinds helps in making you feel at ease. You are one person I will can and always trust to be by my side and thanks for being there for me all these while. Our long conversations which were about almost everything will always be interesting for me. SO YAY! I'm glad I found you<3

Ok ay now after that little mesage of thanks, I have to say that I've been having quita bit of my own fun because I haven't been touching the books. Its time to chill BABY! Maybe after the hols I'll start mugging. Plus I'm excited to meet the old secondary school gang. Its been quite some time since we even met up for a social gathering. HURRAH! I MISS YA'LL! SUN=camewhoring=FUNYO!

2008-02-05T08:47:00.000-08:00

Single word to describe school and everything around me now : HECTIC! Nothings seems right to me these days. My school life isn't very fantastic, my social life is dissappearing, my love life is doing exceptionally bad and what more can there be to make things worse.

But on a happier note the long awaited CNY holidays are nearing and I'm really very enthusiastic about cause it simply means I have more time for myself. I can eat sleep and shop well. hahaha! Oh and it also means visiting = more mandarin oranges and that barbequed pork thingy which iI only get to indulge in once every year. SO YAY! Angela, I'm looking forward to "ching chong" at your house. But I know I won't e running away from SPOO this time round. hopefully she doesn't attack me while I'm eating. HOHO!

"suddenly i see, why the hell you mean so much to me"

NOW! Tell me just frankly how far can this go.

Cause I really don't know. I'm neither confused nor unsure of what I want. All I need is time. But its not a guarantee that it'll get us anywhere. Don't ask why am I doing this. There's no answer for that.

But some part of me really wants it. And hopes it'll work out just right.

and. Valentines day is approaching.

IS IT POSSIBLE, MR.LOVEABLE?

2008-01-20T05:43:00.000-08:00

Time flys by.Really fast. It seems like only yesterday was monday. On a happier note, I haven't been training. No actually the happy part is that I get to avoid the sun but NOT the part where I DON'T need to go for training. Don't ask me why cause I don't really wanna talk about right now. RSN's this week and so what? I don't make part of the team. OH whatever'

Now school's been reeeeeeally exhausting. Everything else is fine except my love life. My social life is being cut off due o the energy draining activities in school. Maybe I'm losing the ability to think. oh wow! Just what I need right now. Well I'm sory to everyone if I haven't caught up with you'll or returned you calls or messages, I will soon. And YAY, Chinese New Year Is coming soon which = to LONG HOLS! HURRRAAAH! Bye for now.

do you really mean it?

2008-01-18T07:09:00.000-08:00

ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE

"I don't like you"
"But I love you. HOW?"

2008-01-12T21:50:00.000-08:00

its not over tonight just give me one chance to make it right we will make it through the night i wont go home without you

2007-12-31T00:55:00.000-08:00

Its a day before the year 2008. Here I am sitting infront of the computer, with no plans for the day. Actually there are many parties which I could drag myself to. But in the end I have to join my parents for the countdown. A part of me is excited for all the upcomings of the new year. BUT, I SO dread school. School is such a suckfest. eeeeeee!!! Now the sun is really hot and its sucking out all the energy stored in me plus my stomach is growling like a hungry bear.

Sometimes I wonder how hard could it be to just be yourself and not be pretentious.
C'mon everyone Lets celebrate the last day of 2007.
HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL! cheers

2007-12-29T07:51:00.000-08:00

We used to be friends

Now. we're not even enemies

There's nothing to forget

The past still lingers

oh wells, the day is almost over

and time cannot be turned back

Lets just think its all for good